As a runner with a goal-driven mentality being on the go is an understatement. Rarely does anyone find me sitting around. Between work, school, and various obligations I tend to find myself with a full plate and until recently I didn’t find anything wrong with that. As ashamed as I am to admit it, I never really thought about including God in what I chose to do. I thought that if I was being a good example and serving him then I was good.
God showed me how wrong I was by taking charge of one of the most important aspects in my life… MY JOB.
Since the age of 17 a job was a necessity and to be honest, it was my security. I knew that if I didn’t work, I couldn’t support myself so I took charge and always made sure I was employed.
Everything else in my life was chaos and out of control, but my job, well that was one thing that always felt safe and secure and I loved it.
I loved going to work every day knowing that I was a hard worker and that I wouldn’t be let go. I gained my identity in my job title. I loved the fact that in the hard life I was forced to endure, there was one thing I had control over and I did whatever I could to make sure that it stayed that way.
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I am learning through my internship what being still means. It means waiting on God to open doors and walking away from the ones he doesn’t want me to go through. It means being okay with the unknown and enjoying my job day by day.
Being still isn’t taking charge of a situation, it’s simply waiting on the Lord to reveal His next steps.
I feel like a little child that is learning how to walk. My little hands are holding on to God’s strong fingers for balance. As I look up at him with fearful eyes, afraid of my future, and not sure which steps to take, I see his gentle and loving eyes looking down at me.
He whispers ever so softly, “Daughter, I’ve got you. I won’t let you fall. I know which steps to take.”
I have this verse written on a chalkboard at my desk as a constant reminder. On those days when my mind is filled with worry, I can just look to this verse. At this point I have no idea where I will be working in a month, let alone a year but one thing I know for sure is that God’s plans will prevail.
When God said, “I know the plans I have for you” I believe that He meant it so I’m going to be still and wait on Him.
The best is yet to come…❤