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The One Who Calls Me Is Faithful

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There are days I feel like I am walking on a tight rope and I think I might just fall at any second. In 4 years my life has changed so much. I’ve skipped a social class and had to learn how to live life in a completely different way. Poverty and Middle Class are so different. There are so many unspoken things people don’t tell you.

I’ve also gone from being alone to having an adopted family as well as family I married into. I’ve had to learn to rely on and trust people. I had to come to the realization that accepting help doesn’t mean I am taking advantage, incapable, or weak.

Like a Chameleon, I’ve tried to blend into new family groups as if I’ve always been in them when I have no idea what “family” looks like and I feel like I just stand out. 

I became a mom and had to learn to care of someone other than myself in a healthy way when I didn’t have anyone growing up who showed me what that looked like. I’ve had to learn nursery rhymes, bible songs, and baby talk. I’ve had to learn to trust, to be loved, and to live life day by day.

I’ve had to learn to stop preparing for any possible situation because I no longer have to worry about getting kicked out, being homeless, or having enough money to pay bills. No longer do I have to choose between having enough gas to get to school or feeding myself for the rest of the week.

I’ve had to re-train my brain to stop making plans for the “what if’s and I’ve had to learn to stop expecting the worst to happen because it won’t. I’m stable now and I have people around me that will help if something goes wrong.

I’m not on my own anymore. I’ve had to learn to accept help and to believe that I am wanted when I was told that I wasn’t for 20 years of my life.

*sigh*

That’s how I feel some days. I just have to take a deep breath and keep going. So much around me has changed and I’m not sure that I am keeping up. I feel overwhelmed and clueless. Like I’m not cut out for whats expected of me and I can’t ask for help because not very many people have walked in my shoes.

The one who calls me is faithful.

Whatever we are going through, learning, or having to re-learn. The one who calls us is faithful. If we fall off that tight rope He will catch us. We are called for such a time as this. To grow and to learn. To reap and to sow.

We have a divine purpose that is preparing us for those pearly gates. Whenever I lose hope or get discouraged I try to remember that. I don’t know what your story looks like. Maybe you moved to a new town or are in an unfamiliar season.  Maybe you started a new job and are overwhelmed with having to adjust to your new “normal.”

The one who calls you is faithful. Our God is the initiator, sustainer, and finisher in the midst of our messy moments. You don’t have to be in control and you don’t need to know the outcome because the one who knit you in your mothers womb does.

~ Lovelle ❤

 

A Letter To My Daughter On My First Mother’s Day

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I blinked and you were 8 months old. I turned my head for what seemed like a second and you changed so much. Your smile melts my heart and your determination makes me so happy. Just today you cried out because you wanted to walk so bad but had to hold your daddy’s hand.

I know that the determination I see in you now will one day cause us to butt heads. I am fully aware of the fact that one day you will be able to speak words. At times those words will be the language of teenagers; sarcasm and that language will cause you to push buttons.

You will do things you aren’t supposed to do. You will get into trouble. Despite all of this, I promise to show you how to use your determination the right way. After all, it helped me get through some really hard things.

God gave you determination for a reason. I really, really love that about you. God has a plan for it and He will use it. One day it will take you a long way. It won’t take you very far if it involves disobeying your parents.

You wiggle and move so much. It makes life so much fun. I can’t turn my back for even a second. If I do I’ll find you reaching your tiny hand towards the electric cord or playing in the dogs water bowl.

I’m going to cherish these moments because one day that tiny hand won’t be so tiny. One day that hand will reach for bigger and better things that are way more fun (and safe.. well… maybe not.) One day you will reach for bigger goals and you will chase those dreams the Lord will lay on your heart.

I’ll worry about your safety and I’ll miss your presence. In those moments and more, I promise to always pray for you and trust that God has got you in the palm of His hand. After all, you ultimately belong to Him.

I’ve already seen you fall down so much. and I know that there will be bigger and harder falls to come. I promise to always be there to wipe away your tears and I promise to always help you get back up.

I hope you never feel too ashamed to use your mistakes for God’s kingdom. I hope you walk in confidence with the knowledge that you are His. Nothing can separate you from His love. It’s in our weakness that He is strong and I hope you boast in your weakness.

I promise to run behind you as you run the race God has set before you. I promise to push you up every hill you will face and cheer you on as you keep running toward that finish line. If you get lost, I promise to point you to the person who can redirect your path.

I wish I could keep you little. I wish you could always be the tiny girl I see in front of me but I can’t so I am going to embrace every moment I have with you. You are the gift I never knew I needed. You bring my life so much joy. Eula Ellen Myers, I am so, so thankful that I get to be your momma.

~ Lovelle ❤

P.S. Happy Mother’s day to all woman out there. We are all moms in some way or another. I know that I have personally been impacted by quite a few, “mom’s” in my 25 years of life and I wouldn’t be the mom I am today without their guidance.

I pray that each and every one of you know how loved and appreciated you are. I hope you know that we need you and are so thankful for you. My prayer is that your Mother’s Day is filled with joy and maybe even a little break from those chores.

XOXO ❤

 

Setting Aside Your Dream

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One year ago my life changed forever when I saw the faint pink line on the pregnancy test. Since I had graduated college only 6 months earlier, being a stay at home mom had never even crossed my mind. I’d worked 5 years to obtain that expensive piece of paper. Surely, I’d use it right? Wrong.

I’m hanging out with my friends at God-Sized Dreams today. I’d love it if you would join me.

 

Believing You Can When You Feel Like You Can’t

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Every week I find myself staring in the mirror as the tiny little surprise in my belly grows bigger. I count down the months until our little girl gets here and although most of the time I get excited, there are times I want to run somewhere and hide because I have no idea how to raise a tiny human. Being a mom has always been a dream of mine I just didn’t expect it to come this soon and I didn’t realize how scary stepping into this new role would be…

I’m hanging out with my God Sized Dreams friends today! I would absolutely love it if you click on over here and join me!

~ Lovelle ❤

We Serve A Faithful God and The #DreamTogether Linkup

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As I look back at my life and where God has brought me I am overwhelmed with thankfulness. I feel like I’m on top of a mountain. After a long hard climb I am finally here in my promised land and I’m reaping the harvest of my endurance.

I’m hanging out with my friends at God- Sized Dreams today click here to see how I truly learned that God is not limited to our circumstances.

~ Lovelle ❤

Remembering All God Has Done

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“In the future when your descendants ask their parents, ‘What do these stones mean?’ tell them, ‘Israel crossed the Jordan on dry ground.’  For the Lord your God dried up the Jordan before you until you had crossed over.

The Lord your God did to the Jordan what he had done to the Red Sea when he dried it up before us until we had crossed over.  He did this so that all the peoples of the earth might know that the hand of the Lord is powerful and so that you might always fear the Lord your God.”
~ Joshua 4: 21-24

I remember my first half marathon like it was yesterday… I felt like I had been through it all. Abuse, homelessness, obesity, fear, anger, survival, and bitterness just to name a few.
Someone got injured and gave me her spot in the Bentonville running festival. I didn’t know if I could do it but I knew I had to try and I succeeded.

After crossing the finish line and walking to my car alone I was reminded that God could help me run this race in life and I held on to His promise that everything was going to be okay even though it didn’t really look like it at the moment.

Three years later, 70 pounds lighter, and a fourth half marathon completed, I still hold tight to that reminder. I’ve watched God do the unthinkable in my life.

For 13.1 miles I get to reminisce on how much one year can really make a difference.

I get to enjoy the fact that when I cross that finish line I won’t be alone like I was the first year. Now I have parents and a husband waiting for me. They are there cheering me on and believing that I can run the race of endurance and become the woman God wants me to be.

Even if I don’t always see it.

That’s why the first weekend of April is my favorite weekend of the year. God has changed me inside and out. On this day, I get to push myself as hard as I can and as my feet hit that pavement; for 13.1 Miles I let Him take me on a wild journey of remembering just how He did that.

I guess you can say my half marathon is my, “stone.” Just like the Israelites, I use my runs and my races to remind me just how far God has taken me and one day when I have little ones, I am going to tell His story through my running shoes.

They will know that their mom’s runs are for more than just exercise. Their mom is running the race of endurance and thanking God for everything He has done.

Do you have a “Stone” set up to remind yourself of how God has brought you out of the wilderness? I would love to hear what it is!

~ Lovelle ❤

God Has Given Everyone a Sweet Spot

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Then Jesus explained, “My nourishment comes from doing the will of God, who sent me, and from finishing his work.”
~ John 4:34

I finally got home. It was one in the morning on a Monday and boy had it been a long day already. The day before I had taken four eighth graders on a four hour long car ride and spent the whole day with them so that they could attend a christian concert.

Two out of the four of them had spent the night at my house the night before that so I guess you can say my weekend was packed and exhausting. There was a lot of bickering, yelling, and at times arguing but as I tucked myself into bed that morning, my body may have been tired but my heart felt so full.

Our nourishment comes from using the gifts God has given us to do exactly what He has called us to do.

It’s those moments when we put everything we have into a particular person, job, or hobby that we fully understand those words in John 4:34. You see, Jesus had a job and He loved every single minute of it. It wasn’t work to Him.

It may have been hard but every single time He healed someone and gave them the gift of salvation, He was nourished and that’s exactly how He created us to live our life.

I love those girls.
I need those girls just as much as they need me.

Every time I drop them off and am so exhausted that I can hardly get myself into bed I know that being involved in their life is exactly where God wants me to be. Today I am encouraging you to find your sweet spot. God has given you one so be involved in it as much as you can.

P.S. if you aren’t sure what God’s called you to do then I would highly recommend the Strengths Finder Test and the Myers Briggs test. They both helped me find my “sweet spot” and it really showed me that some of the things I didn’t think were so good about myself actually are an asset in the Kingdom of Heaven.

~ Lovelle ❤