When Believing Is Hard

2Cor.5-7

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It was March of 2013. I thought I’d been through it all. I had spent a couple weeks couch surfing because I was homeless all while trying to keep my college grades up. I got my housing situation all sorted out but I still had a little problem…

My house was in a different state (a 45 minute drive to and from college) and I had class 5 days a week. Due to my hours being cut at work, I was REALLY short on cash.

I had $60.00 to my name and that just so happened to be the exact amount I owed in tithing. I had a choice to make. I could either save that money for gas or I could put it in tithing.

I was about  to pass the offering plate but I felt the Lord whisper into my heart. He said, “Lovelle, what kind of faith do you have?” So what did I do??? I covered my eyes with one hand and I put the cash in the tithing bucket before I could change my mind.

I thought God would fix my problem ASAP. Preferably after church. After all He said He’d provide right??? A few days went by and my half a tank turned to a quarter of a tank. Then it dipped below that. I remember saying, “Alright God… I need you to do something.” He didn’t…

Before I knew it my tank was on empty and I still had 3 days of school left. I thought it couldn’t get any worse. I pulled into my driveway frustrated and annoyed. I thought I did what God wanted me to do and for what??? From the looks of it I was going to fail college.

I walked into my house and one of the RA’s came up to me. “Hey” she said. “So we’ve been trying to work this out for a while and it just got approved today. We know how hard you work and we know that it’s a really long drive to school. Here’s a gift card to help you with some gas.”

A $5O GIFT CARD TO KUM N’ GO… RIGHT AFTER MY TANK WAS ON EMPTY.

Yes, I totally bawled my eyes out. That is the kind of faith 2 Corinthians 5:7 talks about. It’s having confidence through every circumstance and trusting God even when life looks like it’s not going to turn out okay.

I don’t tell you this story to say that I am a perfect example. I’m not. I had no choice but to wait and before I stepped foot in that house I had a yelling match with God about how He didn’t follow through.

In fact, I still need that reminder and maybe you do too?? There are still days where I get frustrated at God. Life is hard. It’s full of change and situations that come out of nowhere.

I don’t know about you but, I want to live a blindfolded life. One that doesn’t base success, failure, or comfort on what I can see in front of me. One day at a time right???

~ Lovelle ❤

P.S. Thanks for taking a second to stop by and read my second #soulseedsaturday post! Life is hard and you are doing a pretty great job getting through it. I’d love to be here to encourage you while you take it on like a boss. If there’s a specific area that you could use some encouragement, I’d love to hear about it! You can post it in the comments or contact me here

P.P.S. I am booking speaking engagements for 2018. I know right??? It’s here already! If you’d like me to come speak at your event or church click on over here and I’ll prayerfully consider your request.

7 thoughts on “When Believing Is Hard

  1. Modestly Me

    Lovelle,

    Living “one day at a time” and serving the Good LORD the way that He has intended for that day is something I’m working on myself. I realize for me, that I get so caught up in thinking about x, y, z things that I “need” to do, making lists and wanting to get them done NOW… and then having this list of things hanging over me, weighing on my shoulders instead of leaning into God and trusting that He’s already got all of that figured out and that His timing is perfect. I also had a talk with Him tonight about how I like to put relationships in neat little boxes but, life is messy, we are human and He has a purpose for all of it. Thank you for being a voice of confirmation and encouraging and inspiring me to just “let go and let God.” He will never leave nor forsake us… and that is more than enough.
    I pray you and your beautiful family have a blessed day and new year!

    This side of Heaven,
    Summer Rae

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    1. Lovelle Gerth-Myers Post author

      I’m so glad my sorry can help summer. It was a hard season with a lot of good lessons. It’s so hard to let go but once we do life gets a lot easier 😉. Thanks for stopping by! Happy new head to you as well.

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  2. Sylvia Rodriguez

    Wow, that was so real, no mask. I appreciated that! It brings much comfort, insight and the truth that sets us free. Please attempt to remain this sincere with no pretense as your speaking engagements increase.
    Am i out of God’s will when i continue to ask what happened to your dog? As an animal lover i was fond of occassionally seeing photos of it. You know, i bought into the whole family thing including your dog.

    YOUR BLOG IS A BEAUTIFUL BOUQUET AMONGST SO MANY IN THE GARDEN!

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    1. Lovelle Gerth-Myers Post author

      Hey Sylvia, thanks for the sweet words. I’ll sure try. If and when I speak I ask the Lord what to say. It’s His words through me and He gets all the glory. I don’t remember you ever asking but, No, you aren’t out of line asking about Buford. I understand why you are concerned. A lot of people get rid of their dogs when kids come into the picture. He’s our family and he’s here to stay. All that to say, he’s great! You probably haven’t seen many pictures because he’s not photogenic 😂 and whenever we take family pictures we are out and about. He’s typically at home. He’s our daughters little protector. He loves her dearly. He’s not sure what to do with her since she’s so young. If she cries he runs straight to her room and will lay by her crib. He does that when I’m putting her to bed as well. He also likes to sniff her a lot and lay beside her. I can’t wait to see how they bond when she gets older. I know they will be best buds.

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  3. Christina

    Loved this message thanks for your encouragement so needed….
    Life is so unpredictable….
    We must always trust God is holding us each and every day
    Blessed new year!!!!!

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